Off again!

I can't do this anymore! I can't find the colors I want to show and feel! But I... I betrayed you today. I joined wordpress and now I have a blog there. I found the colors and the feel of it... And now to try one last cheap move ;)

I don't know..

...what to do.
This quasi-relationship that is part play, part seduction, part pure thrill, and 100% dangerous is too much of a turn-on to completely ignore or shut out, but of course... as always.. I know better >.<
I hate having common sense sometimes. I'm not going to say anything.. he did once but I let it slide because I don't want it to end and I don't want things to change, but eventually, something will change and, one way or another, I'll have to decide. I know what my end choice will be, it's the in-between one that I don't know about.
How much will my master permit before he draws his line?
How much is too much?